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Let's Be Honest: Anxiety and Depression Sucks

Updated: Nov 16, 2021

If you're one of the more than 14.8 million adults in the United States who suffers from significant depression, you may find it difficult to get out of bed, be around the people you care about, or engage in activities you normally enjoy. It's the worst thing that's ever happened to me.

Depression is a disease that consumes you from the inside out. It's as though a monster has taken over your mind. The saddest part is knowing that my family and friends were doing everything they could to help, but I still felt alone. Whatever was spoken to me, I managed to convert into a negative experience. I was, in a sense, my own worst enemy. I'd get home and be so fatigued from all of the voices in my head that all I wanted to do was sleep it off. I didn't want to get out of bed since life was a nightmare for me. I was sick to my stomach with dread of the night since that's when the voices were much louder. I'd been frustrated because sleeping seemed difficult, as if insomnia and despair were linked.

I knew I needed assistance, but seeking it made me feel like a burden. I desired a life free of medications, physicians, therapists, hospitals, and bad ideas. I felt as though I'd lost my identity and would never be the same. Because I couldn't see a future for myself, I had no incentive to achieve anything. Anxiety led me to assume that everyone was pretending to love me. The worst thing someone ever said to me was, "Cheer up." Others two words conjured up a slew of unpleasant images in my head, and I was berating myself for not concealing my feelings effectively enough from those around me.

I desperately wanted everyone to know how I felt, but I was afraid to tell them. After a while, I just shut myself up in my room because I figured that if I didn't interact with anyone, nothing could go wrong, right?

I currently rely on medication, which I am happy for because I know it has much aided me. At the same time, I try to strike a balance between my desire to be free of it and my dread of relapsing.

The most terrifying aspect of my recovery is that I am the only person who can actually assist me. I've learned to adjust my mind processes and stop bullying myself; it's been a difficult habit to break, but I'm confident that I've made progress.

In 2019, I came found a book by Scott Shoemaker called "Pattern Fitness: Your Body, Your Mind, Your Workout."

I was apprehensive at first, but I went ahead and got it anyhow, and I'm glad I did. Pattern Fitness: Your Body, Your Mind, Your Workout is for persons who have battled to lose weight due to anxiety, depression, or ADD/ADHD. There are numerous fresh and intriguing techniques for assisting people in sticking to fitness programms by assisting them in resolving the issue of brain power vs. willpower. Unleash your full potential and learn to work around your mental health issues so you can take charge of your body!

After that, life has never been the same for me, and I'm slowly but steadily facing the truth that there are some things we can't get back, and it's time for us to understand that there will always be pain in life. However, we must summon the courage to move forwards; we must decide what kind of pain we want. The pain of regrets or the anguish of working towards our ultimate objective of entirely healing ourselves from the inside out.

If you want to learn more about what you can do to improve your life, read "Pattern Fitness: Your Body, Your Mind, Your Workout" by Scott Shoemaker. You won't be disappointed.

The book is available in both eBook and Paperback formats on Amazon. The kindle version costs $9.99, while the paperback version costs $15.95.

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Sometimes you must hurt in order to know, fall in order to grow, lose in order to gain because life's greatest lessons are learned through pain. - Nagato


Totally relate. :(

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